Times are hard...

when you live with an alcoholic who pops pills and becomes obnoxious and needy. I need to move out because I literally feel my spirit getting sucked from me. My surroundings are rubbing off on me and I too am becoming a more miserable person. I used to feel a lot happier but now I feel like I've aged years in the last couple of months.

I hate that I can't stand my older brother sometimes. Why can't he realize he needs help? And why does he take pills when they make him meaner and more miserable?

Here's to my brother.. wherever you are right now.

Still searching...

*For the perfect red pumps. - A true red, no taller than 3" preferably, not shiny, and something va voom if you know what I mean.

*For the perfect little black coat. -Something a fashionable New Yorker would wear.

*For the perfect holiday party dress. - Festive but not gaudy, something that would look adorable with tights.

*For the perfect fishnets. - Nothing that screams 80s or hooker, small/subtle fishnet, maybe in grey or tan?

*For the perfect black purse/bag. - Big enough to fit all my junk into, but still pretty.

That's all.

Happy birthday to me...

No cake this year. No party, no singing, no wrapped gifts. I was asked if I felt different, do you ever really feel different on your birthday? Really, it was just another Monday. Another year older and each year I get less and less enthused about it as do the people around me. I guess that's just part of growing up. I can't really complain because I did get to see the Broadway play Rent with my dad. We went just the two of us, which was nice because it's something that has never happened before. I got to eat some good food and spend some precious time with my love. I got a deep purple purse that's big enough to fit all my junk into as well as some Seychelle boots I talked my mom into getting me for my birthday about a month and a half ago. So all is not terrible. In fact life is good. I need to stay focused on the positive things because lately I've been feeling like I'm at a breaking point. These past couple of days a lot of bad things have been happening and I didn't particularly enjoy my actual birthday. It was just one thing after another to the point where everything felt like it was ready to spill out all at once. I cried for the first time in months but it wasn't even a good cry. Just a slight tear leakage, mostly out of frustration.

This is mostly me ranting. Not gushing about clothes or shoes but venting about life. I know I don't have it so bad, I realize that. I just feel like I'm still searching for happiness. I can really relate to this exact feeling (from Garden State) more and more:

- You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of a sudden even though you have some place where you put your shit, that idea of home is gone.

- I still feel at home in my house.

- You'll see one day when you move out it just sort of happens one day and it's gone. You feel like you can never get it back. It's like you feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist. Maybe it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't ever have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I don't know, but I miss the idea of it, you know. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people that miss the same imaginary place.

I'm not sure if happiness comes with a solid career, foundation, family and friends, or if it's just something you have to find yourself with patience and time. I think I'll feel true happiness when I feel the feeling of home again.

La Photo Booth

Bored much? Like photos? Particularly old french-inspired photo booths? Me too! check out la photocabine. It's oodles of fun. Even if you are makeup-less and it's 9 o'clock in the morning. Sigh.



in color and in black in white.




Found via Blue Bird Vintage blog. Pretty darn cool if you ask me, oui?

ps I love how the second to last one made it look like I have an old-school villain mustache. Awesome.

Style Icon: Zooey Deschanel

Zooey is my number one girl crush. That's why she's first on the style icon list. She's quirky, cute and her style is the perfect mix of modern, girly and retro. Not to mention she has beautiful quality vocals (She and Him) and acting skills. Prepare for picture overload because I had a hard time narrowing down some of my favorite looks of hers.





















One things for sure, the girl loves her bows and tights!

Happy Turkey Day!

or ToFurkey if you're like me. Three things I'm thankful for at the moment...

1. Friends & family.

2. Cuddling.

3. Fashion blogs.

All three keep me sane. It's always good to remember the pleasant things in life.

A cat!

Such strange and disconcerting creatures they are.

Look Book: Grandma Chic

Hi there.

New/old shoes in action.

I was inspired by my outing with the "red hatters" to pull something together that would blend well with those fun kooky ladies.

That's right. I joined my mom and a few red hatters on an outing and I had a blast! OK so maybe I do need to get out more. We ate at a place called The Backyard which was picnic inspired and super yummy, complete with one of the best veggie burgers of my life. Followed by shopping the nearby stores which included beautiful vintage furniture and a quaint garden area. Good company and good eats with some vintage gawking equals good times.

Dress: Urban Outfitters, Shoes: thrifted, hat: pacsun maybe?

10 random things.

I need to find a pair of sunglasses like these! I would rock em once more.


This is basically a copout for having nothing to write about so here you have it... 10 random things:

1. I did dance (ballet/pointe, tap, jazz, and lyrical) for years and quit when I was 15. I regret it to this day but I still dance alone and barefoot in my room so it never really left me.

2. "Don't Stop Believin" gives me goosebumps every time.

3. I have a serious fear of being kidnapped or raped. I can be a little bit paranoid...

4. I prefer to drive barefoot.

5. I'm a sucker for guys with sleeves and pretty eyes.



6. I always wanted to do like Enid from Ghost World and just disappear so I pretty much did that when I turned 18. (Now I'm back).

7. My three favorite looks are organic, mod and whimsical.

8. I've been a vegetarian since I was 17 or so. It was one of the best decisions I've ever made.

9. I own a pug (Izzy) for 5 years now and she always makes me smile when I'm having a bad day.

10. My dream job would be a fashion photographer or a fashion buyer but I'm a realist and am fine with the field of pediatrics. I have a knack for dealing with children and animals.

On some happy recent purchases

$25 from Salvation Army ($75 split three ways). As soon as I saw this couch, I knew it had to be mine! The color, the shape, the comfiness! Never mind the fact that I don't own my own place. You don't stumble on couches like these everyday.

$6 from the Salvation Army. I love these shoes, they're worn and beat up some but I think they have character. Very Little House on the Prairie.

$35 from Urban Outfitters. Got it during their $35 dress sale and I'm glad I did because it sold out the next day. I want to wear it to an art function of some sort and maybe pair it with a black belt, tights and ankle booties.

Post Halloween Photos

I almost forgot to share!



As you can see, I decided on my $6 bright red mary jane wedges. The strap broke right in the beginning of the night but you get what you pay for I guess. We still had a blast dancing and gawking at other costumes until 2:30 am. Good times indeed.

Vibrant legs.

Colored tights are one of those style trends that I adore on others but am unsure of for myself. I have my sturdy German legs first off which means my calfs are bigger than your average gal and I tend to shy away from bright colors anyways. Still I especially love the look of pairing a plain dark dress with bright tights. An otherwise simple outfit becomes something more bold and unique.




These may not be the simplest outfits but I adore them all the same.





Hmm.. I'm thinking I should just go ahead and try this fun trend out. I've always stuck to black but I think I'll graduate to gray, navy and maroon, then on to the brighter colors. I'm all about the baby steps.

Photos from abbeykarson, whatiwore, theclotheshorse, and keikolynn.

Happy Halloween!

Unfortunately I will be working Halloween but hopefully I will be getting out around 9:30 pm so the night will still be young! Work is requiring all of us to be in costume, I plan on going in scrubs because frankly the thought of working in scrubs makes me giddy. It will be like working in pajamas! Woot. So far there are a few of us planning on wearing scrubs so it will be humorous seeing numerous servers/hostesses at a restaurant in scrubs.

Hope everyone has a fun Halloween. If you see a girl walking around as 3D glasses, that's probably me! I hope I won't be running into another 3D glasses or it will go down. Nah I'll probably just wave to be honest.

Looks I'm loving.

via I am style-ish

via The Sartorialist.

via Clothed Much.

via Liebemarlene.

via The Clothes Horse.

Girly but with character and a bit of sass.

Look Book: The Spirit of Halloween.

Dress: Anthropologie, Shoes: Seychelles

Normally I shy away from bright colors such as this orange, in fact when I first saw it my automatic thought was "there's no way." but I've been trying to make more of an effort to add color besides blue, black, white and gray in my wardrobe so I went ahead and tried it on. Once it was on I started to appreciate the bright pop of color in the skirt and how it contrasted with the gray. I love Anthropologie but I don't love their prices so when I saw this dress on sale, I had to snatch it up and I'm glad I did.

And the shoes! Oh how I love these shoes. I've been looking for a pair of boots like these that can go with not just jeans but dresses and skirts too. These are perfect. They do start hurting after about an hour but it's worth it. (thanks mom!)

Oh and the picture quality is not the greatest on this one because it was taken with my cell phone. Poor college student obsessed with clothes = no camera. From now on I'll be assigning the task to Los since he happens to own a camera. He's amazing like that :)

Halloweeeen!

So this is actually the first year that I'm truly and utterly excited for Halloween. This is because I actually picked out my own costume that I'm in love with and would wear everyday if I could. Ok perhaps not everyday but many days.

Growing up, we never celebrated Halloween. My parents were into that whole "It's the devil's holiday" thing and so the most we would do was go to church functions where I would still gorge myself on candy and feel the consequences later. I've never actually been "Trick or Treating" which people tend to gasp at but I'm ok with. I'm far too paranoid of a person to go knocking on strangers doors and there's always the possibility of poisoned candy or hidden razors in apples. Hey, it happens!

But this Halloween is different! I have my very own costume and I'm going to hang out with friends while walking around balking at the variety of slutastic costumes. Sooo freaking exciting!

So now that I got you all hyped up, bursting at the seams for a peek at my costume; check it.





3D glasses. Genius! I got this from Etsy seller Nicole Lindner. This girl has got skills I tell you, she did a great job on this dress and I couldn't be more thrilled with it. I plan on either pairing it with my black Seychelles boots or these fabulous bright red mary jane wedges I thrifted for 6 bucks. Stay tuned for the excited decision and post Halloween pictures!

Where the Wild Things Are.

Friday night I finally got to see the much anticipated Where the Wild Things Are movie. It was near midnight and I just got done from work and babysitting the whole day, in short, I was exhausted but I didn't want to wait any longer to see this movie. Plus I was able to witness it in IMAX (que in the "oos and ahhs").


The exhaustion and anticipation was well worth it.

It was visually stunning, emotionally capturing and the soundtrack was perfection. I. loved. it. I was able to leave the theatre with my guy's hand in mine and a smile on my face.

If you haven't seen it yet, go! If you have, weren't those warm fuzzy childlike feelings you felt while watching grand? I thought mine were gone forever.

I've been seeing fashion lines everywhere in relation to the movie. Check out all the cool Where the Wild Things Are items from Urban.

va voom.

My heart skipped a beat when I saw these...

Oh the tiny studs..

The suede gray..

The sky-high heels!

but then dropped when I saw the price tag.

Ever see something and immediately feel like you must have them to truly feel complete? These feelings are so unhealthy when you're a full-time student and part-time minimum wage employe living with your brother. Sigh. There's always Christmas and saving my pennies slowly but surely.

These have the potential to make my legs look amazing people! Just look at the model! I bet she's stoked to be wearing such texture rich beauties on her tootsies. Mind you that leather corset skirt can't be comfortable to walk around in and is pushing the sexiness in my book but hey! I'll bet she's still pretty darn happy.

Thanks to Peonies, I'm a big admirer of Bona Drag.

These (much more affordable) studded ballet slippers are also on my lust list. They have the potential to bring out my inner ballerina rock star.